Birthday Thoughts

I sit here at my desk an entire year older and, hopefully, a whole lot wiser(yes?)

Mat's "Crashing Down" is playing softly in the background. I'm taking a short break from typing up proposals and final menu drafts to contemplate the year...

The song is fitting to where I find myself today, officially 29 years old. I'm at a crossroads. The past year was full of its share of disappointments, hurts and uncertainties. I have been kicked in the butt and at times it felt as though I were emotionally/spiritually left for dead. Don't get me wrong, there were good times as well: sharing in the joys and triumphs of others. Witnessing God at work in the small moments we often forget. Taking teeny-weeny-itsy-bitsy steps forward...

I'm wondering in silent amazement at what will unfold as all of this comes crashing down. Everything I was and knew and thought was right. Everything I knew and thought so highly of me.

And as He takes chisel to hand, I hold my breath.