Let's chalk up this past Saturdy's depress-mode to a combination of cabin-fever, hormones and being sick.
There I go again... jumping to conclusions! ;p
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Invisible
Not one person (save for my mom) remembered my birthday - not my friends, family, NO ONE!!!
I feel invisible; insignificant; unimportant .
With all the snow outside, I can't even go to the market to by myself a birthday cake...
This year is starting out on a REAL sour note... Let's hope it gets better...
~ a
I feel invisible; insignificant; unimportant .
With all the snow outside, I can't even go to the market to by myself a birthday cake...
This year is starting out on a REAL sour note... Let's hope it gets better...
~ a
happy birthday to me...
I'm am officially 26 today.... yay. :(
Official "Happy Birthday!"s: 1 (from mom who is in Korea right now)
Birthday "presents":
* the cold (or maybe strept throat)... my throat kills! :(
* Audrey Hepburn Boxed DVD set from my bro :)
* SNOW... and lots of it
* my grandfather's wake/funeral was today :(
This day isn't starting out so greatt, is it?...
~ a
[Edit: If your joy is truly mine... give me the eyes to see it, Lord, and the heart to embrace and rejoice in it... especially today.]
Official "Happy Birthday!"s: 1 (from mom who is in Korea right now)
Birthday "presents":
* the cold (or maybe strept throat)... my throat kills! :(
* Audrey Hepburn Boxed DVD set from my bro :)
* SNOW... and lots of it
* my grandfather's wake/funeral was today :(
This day isn't starting out so greatt, is it?...
~ a
[Edit: If your joy is truly mine... give me the eyes to see it, Lord, and the heart to embrace and rejoice in it... especially today.]
Thursday, January 06, 2005
Reflecting on Passion05
Just got back from Passion05 (in Nashville) late last night. Must say that it was a really refreshing time for me (albeit stressful as MK and I were busy schlepping 29 people back and forth from the hotel to the conference center in two mini-vans no less!)
Hate to admit it, but it's been A WHILE since I've really been able to feel anything during praise. Matt Redman once wrote that sometimes God will take you through the desert (e.g. Moses) so that we can find Him. Well, these last couple years have found me in the desert - parched, cold, lost and alone. But thanks be to God for His EVER-faithfulness and NEARNESS (even when I wander so far).
It's kind of funny when i look back at the last few days. There I was in Nashville worshiping with over 14,000 screaming and dancing Christians, led to worship with the most talented and well-known worship leaders of our time and I could have cared less. No, it's not what you may think because it was the first time in a LONG time that I was able to truly say that it was just me and God. With tears rolling down my face, I sang my heart out - taking in every word and emotion.
I doubt anyone will be reading this (as I haven't told anyone about this blog thing I've made), but, if you're reading this, I just want to leave you with the words to one of the songs that really convicted and humbled me:
yearn
by shane barnard
holy design
this place in time
that i might seek and find my God
my God
Lord i want to yearn for You
i want to burn with passion
over You and only You
Lord i want to yearn
Your joy is mine
yet why am i fine
with all my singing and bringing grain
in light of Him
oh You give life and breath
through Him You give all things
in Him we live and move
that's why i sing
acts 17:25-28, hebrews 12:28-29
Hate to admit it, but it's been A WHILE since I've really been able to feel anything during praise. Matt Redman once wrote that sometimes God will take you through the desert (e.g. Moses) so that we can find Him. Well, these last couple years have found me in the desert - parched, cold, lost and alone. But thanks be to God for His EVER-faithfulness and NEARNESS (even when I wander so far).
It's kind of funny when i look back at the last few days. There I was in Nashville worshiping with over 14,000 screaming and dancing Christians, led to worship with the most talented and well-known worship leaders of our time and I could have cared less. No, it's not what you may think because it was the first time in a LONG time that I was able to truly say that it was just me and God. With tears rolling down my face, I sang my heart out - taking in every word and emotion.
I doubt anyone will be reading this (as I haven't told anyone about this blog thing I've made), but, if you're reading this, I just want to leave you with the words to one of the songs that really convicted and humbled me:
yearn
by shane barnard
holy design
this place in time
that i might seek and find my God
my God
Lord i want to yearn for You
i want to burn with passion
over You and only You
Lord i want to yearn
Your joy is mine
yet why am i fine
with all my singing and bringing grain
in light of Him
oh You give life and breath
through Him You give all things
in Him we live and move
that's why i sing
acts 17:25-28, hebrews 12:28-29
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