Today's message was about the word of God and the importance of it. It was a message that hit way too close. It shone a light into this darkness I've been in. It was blinding.7 The law of the LORD is perfect,
reviving the soul;
the testimony of the LORD is sure,
making wise the simple;
8 the precepts of the LORD are right,
rejoicing the heart;
the commandment of the LORD is pure,
enlightening the eyes;
9the fear of the LORD is clean,
enduring forever;
the rules of the LORD are true,
and righteous altogether.
10More to be desired are they than gold,
even much fine gold;
sweeter also than honey
and drippings of the honeycomb.
11Moreover, by them is your servant warned;
in keeping them there is great reward.12 Who can discern his errors?
Declare me innocent from hidden faults.
13 Keep back your servant also from presumptuous sins;
let them not have dominion over me!
Then I shall be blameless,
and innocent of great transgression.14Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be acceptable in your sight,
O LORD, my rock and my redeemer.[Psalm 19:7-14, ESV]
Are you living under the the God's Word or above it?
Do you live as one who submits to God's Word and listens for what He reveals to/in you? Or do you sift through it until you find what YOU want Him to say?
I listened in silence. The realization that God's sweet and treasured voice has been little more than a paperweight in my life this year shook me. I think if my soul had knees, they'd be shaking.
Let God's Word infiltrate your life. Let it mark and shape you. Let it inform your days.
[Red alert! Red alert! Intruder! Intruder! Someone has broken through the barricades I'd put up around me.]
A new year is approaching. I've never been one to make New Year's resolutions, but today, as we prepared to take communion, I prayed to my God.
I prayed for His light to shine into the darkest parts of me, for it to expel and remove the impurities.
I asked for His vision and hand to move about and within.
I prayed for His patience and His urging.
I asked for a heart and thirst to follow and search for Him.
I prayed for forgiveness and asked that His life-giving blood would surge through these shallow veins.
I've been paralyzed by fear, hurt, and bitterness for far too long, the muscles of my faith atrophied from little use.
I'm learning to walk again. Please bear with me should I stumble.
1 comment:
Really great, Annie! You know, I almost started another blog recently, a private one, for all the things I felt I couldn't say on my blog.
You ever get to that point, where you realize that a big part of your year was wasted on something or someone--and you can't get the months back? I realize, especially looking back at my bloggings from April, that I used to be smarter, funnier and more productive. But that I've grown weary and embittered by something trivial. And it's changed me. I'm less me, somehow. I so much need to live under the word of God again, to let it delve into those places to make me whole again.
So that I can have self-respect. So that I can delight in God without being weary and elusive. I need the freedom and light-heartedness that I used to have.
-lots of love
allie
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